5-19-25
| listening: |
luther (ft sza) - kendrick lamar |
| feeling: |
like a broke bitch... |
what retail does to a mf. i don't rlly like my job, it't not bad
or anything, retail just isn't my thing. its so booooooringgg.
i don't wanna market an outfit to you, i want to set up
your network!!!!
i want to go back to my internship. ngl if i could just do that
kind of work for the rest of my life i'd be chilling. i love
networking and computers i do NOT like standing around... the
clothes are cute but i do not get enough shifts to afford
anything anyway. the things i do for a few bucks. sigh. i'm ngl
i might need another job cause i can't buy shit but literally no
one wants to hire me!!! "we need employees" my ass- (on that
note i will draw for money just a reminder...)
been on my kendrick arc for the past week or so cause spotify
kept dropping random songs into my playlist cause i kept
listening to 30 for 30 and luther. i've always liked a handful
of kendrick songs but i'm gonna have to listen to a full album
at some point. him and sza are cooking full course meals on
their collab tracks omfg... i wish i could get the feeling i had
listening to all the stars during the black panther movie's
credits back.
that was the first marvel movie i'd seen and it got me
really excited to finally get into marvel and see what i
was missing.
very unfortunate to get into marvel and then everything past
endgame be shit -v-. i don't have much to say about most of the
marvel properties but my favs have always been black panther and
guardians of the galaxy. rocket my beloved. if only u knew how
cool u are (he definitely does lol)
(i also really like mantis. she's just like me fr (autistic))
5-9-25
| watching: |
mattkc lego decomp vids |
| feeling: |
more concrete |
i'm officially hired! this will be my first retail job,
and i start tomorrow. onboarding was today and all of my
managers seemed really nice so i think it will be okay. luckily,
i'm starting before the summer rush so i should have a slow
environment to learn in.
i've been going back into my techy yt rabbit hole and god i wish
i knew everything rn. i really hope i can learn javascript by
the end of the summer, i'd like to have at least one scripting
language under my belt. i wanna make videogames!!! and i wanna
write random scripts to make stuff easier for me... aughhhh i
wanna know Everything right Now
i reeeeeally wanna buy
this re-imagined ipod thing
also... augfh....
this website's birthday is next week! idk if i'll do anything
but i'm thinking about it :3
5-5-25
| listening: |
circle the drain - soccer mommy |
| feeling: |
untethered |
as of a few days ago, i'm officially a
high-school graduate! it's quite nice to be moved out of
my dorm and back around all of my stuff. though i didn't realize
that people give you money so now i have more money than i know
what to do with???? this isn't counting the money i saved up
from my job last year. maybe i can build a pc but honestly i
should probably focus on a stronger laptop. people keep asking
me how i feel about graduating, but honestly there isn't much to
say. i feel the same as i do all the time, just like on my
birthday. i'll be starting college in the fall so... new things
are on the way?
as for my high school performance, i graduated with a pretty
good act score and gpa and some ap classes under my belt. i
think i did well but i can say that i didn't waste all of my
teen years for perfect grades which is what i really wanted.
i have a job interview set up for this week! hopefully i get a
job... that way i can save all of the graduation money and last
year money. i'll use whatever i get now for fleshing out my
console collection and fixing/setting up various things around
the house (ex: craft center, broken consoles, ethernet)
about the craft center, since joann fabrics is going out of
buisness i went to buy some things on sale. i got some scrapbook
paper and clothing patterns! i remembered i have a sewing
machine, so i'm gonna try to make a swimsuit. i hate buying them
from stores cause they're always either
expensive, ugly, or both. this way i can choose my fabric
and pattern and make something i actually like!!! if this goes
well, i may make a fashion page to document more clothes i make.
we'll see...
now that i'm home, i have a few things i want to do. i really
want to learn soldering to homebrew the rest of my consoles, and
begin setting up a homelab. once i get more progress on that
i'll probably make a page about it too. at the very least, i
want to get my plex server working correctly and rip all of my
dvds/blurays. maybe i'll get a nas...?