3-26-25
| listening: |
harpy hare - yaelokre |
| feeling: |
surprised |
prom this weekend ughhhhhhh.... hopefully i get to hang out with
my bf the day before, i wanna play tekken lol. apparently i
wasn't clear that i didn't want to go to prom to my parents o~o
i thought that was understood. i literally never go to dances. i
went to the first highschool dance, decided it was mid, and only
went to any subsequent dances if i was asked to. this'll be the
third dance of my highschool career (and the last thank god). i
think an unnessesary amount of emphasis is put on this one event
but no hate to the people who like dressing up and socializing,
it's just not for me :p
i was playing splatoon series yesterday (super surprising ik)
and bro. this is like a group project i don't get to choose my
partners. i usually don't play online if i'm playing splatoon
cause i have the most fun with my teammates, we're pretty synced
up imo. but everyone says i should get out of c- rank because i
usually play in s+ lobbies i just don't level myself up there.
so i decide to take some initiative and play by myself..
and this absolute dipshit with a brain of rocks is
playing ranked series like its turf.
LOCK IN!!!!!
apparently this is how ranked players feel all the time but its
not for me man. i'm gonna go play side order again -_- (this is
the code from that game btw if u wanna watch it, the guy playing
turf is named :3 RKGT-GHRM-M8PE-N5J4)
anyway i have other things to do but the main reason i'm writing
an entry today is i wanted to say i think my meds are working!!
(which i mentioned last entry and i forgor lol) i was singing
risk by mega mango (really good song btw) and i finished it and
i realized i didn't think "god i wish i didn't feel like this"
at all during the song. i kinda don't feel like anything for a
few days buuuuuuut.. progress. i'll take what i can get o7
also i finished
an animation
but i'm too lazy to post it properly so i'm just dropping the
link here lol
3-20-25
small update: my team won that hackathon i mentioned before! we
placed first so i get like 200 bucks which is craaaazy.
when i joined i didn't even know we could win money i just
wanted to make a website... ∑(ﾟ∇ﾟ|||) once the money comes in i
can put it towards stuff for my room and the site!
i got two commissions this month so i'm thinking about getting a
domain! that'll create a whole issue with my webrings again tho,
maybe i can figure out a redirect solution. :p i wanna try out
csp but idk about using it on my ipad and my computer is too
weak 4 it (i can't run medibang paint/firealpaca without lag
-_-) i'm considering switching from procreate to csp but there
are some issues w that.
-
i don't have a screen tablet or a powerful enough
computer to justify getting the puter version
- super brokies
- i dont wanna pay a subscription for the ipad version...
idk we will just have to see. 40 something days until i graduate
high school wish me luck. gonna miss my friends and my boyfriend
but other than that i don't wanna be hereeeeeee aaaaaaaaaaaaa
ಠ_ಠ not to mention i have to go to prom instead of a local game
competition (how typical of a neocities recluse to prefer
splatoon to prom ik) i don't even want to go to prom i'm just
going for my ??? mom??? parents??? family????? idk i wouldn't be
going if i didn't have do. i don't like traditions like this.
the possibility of winning the pool money once more has been
stolen from my bf and i. tragic crime!!
i think my meds are working cause i have a lot more thoughts
like "wow i love my friends" and "wow its fun to be alive" "wow
i appreciate all of my neoneighbors for being alive and
creating" general flowery things like that. but as im writing
this i am realizing those mfs wear offfffff. i am generally
holding more love and kindness in my heart every day tho. i do
my best. i will survive despite everything o7
augh also i mentioned something on my site profile about writing
an article but it kinda turned into a manifesto so idk if i'll
finish it. i just got really pissed off about all the stuff
being defunded and how the planet is going rn. not much i can do
about that large scale ig, but i'll try to make community in my
cities and mold a support system many people can benefit from.
idk i'm rambling now so i'm probably gonna close vscodium for
the night. RELIABLE NATIONWIDE PUBLIC TRANSPORTATION FOR
EVERYONE RN. FUCK CARS. I WAS BUILT TO LOOK LOVINGLY OUT A TRAIN
WINDOW LIKE A MOVIE CHARACTER.